Stress times.
Things are not going particularly well.
As a result of not getting paid when I should’ve, I predictably have no money. Apparently, not having money causes problems such as my phone being cut off because I can’t pay my bill and being unable to buy any or even get the bus into town to get near the shops. I can’t even afford to do laundry – luckily the lovely woman who runs the linen room here took pity on me and let me do it over there. I’m getting by on small cash handouts from my mum, only about £10 a week but they barely have enough to get by so I feel bloody guilty for taking even that little.
The job isn’t helping. When the boss isn’t having a go at me for things that aren’t my fault, she’s asking questions that I can’t answer. Seriously, I don’t know everything off the top of my head, particularly when I’m not the only person working on the same thing. Apparently I’m meant to know what everyone is doing. Aside from that, it’s getting really busy, systems are getting confused, things aren’t matching up where they should be and it’s generally a massive clusterfuck. This is causing arguments between me and my colleague… who also happens to be my housemate, one of my best friends and the only person on hand to keep me sane at the moment – basically, the one person I really don’t want to argue with right now.
I need a break. I need to go home for a week, away from this place and all the shit that comes along with it, and do absolutely nothing but drink tea, play with the cat and watch TV. Naturally, this break isn’t going to happen. People at work are gradually wandering off so we’re short as it is… and, besides, there’s only two of us on the part of the job I’m doing. I don’t want to sound arrogant but I genuinely doubt they’d be able to function without me, at least for the next couple of weeks. There’s a good chance we’ll run out of work by then, in which case I won’t even have to ask for the time off… I just have to hope I don’t crack and go completely mental before then. I might book off next Friday and the following Monday so I can get a long weekend at least.